Completely miserable.

I'm miserable.  Simply miserable.  Exhausted by my daily act and pretending to have my shit together.

Horrible breakdown tonight.  I miss talking to her.  I miss talking about her.

I have no one.  I feel like she has been erased from people's memories/minds - but yet I'm here alone - drowning in memories, wishes that will never happen and misery.  

I am so goddamn miserable and cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I just want my mom back.