I miss him more than I ever thought imaginable. What I would give for one more hour.
Mom was here this past weekend - I'll write a post for the weekend soon - but it was a great time. Funny enough, Tracy summed it up perfectly when we finally were able to talk on gchat:
i was thinking about you all weekend...so excited they were there...but i just knew it would be hard too...i can imagine that you might feel lonelier once they are gone because you are reminded of what your missing.
So thankful I have one person in my life who understands how a visit from my mom can be painful at the same time. Other people I've said this to - look at me like I'm crazy. When I was home after they left - my house felt so empty. My life felt so empty...
I will admit that I realize how "out of sight - out of mind" I can be with Leo. Not that I don't think about him, but I feel like he is on vacation. I feel like he will return any day now. I still have a hard time wrapping my mind around the reality. It's pretty awful...knowing the truth and my reality and having to play those thoughts against each other.
Seeing Mom, Allan and Brenda - without Leo - has brought on an entire new wave of emotions this week. He should have been here this past weekend.
I'm just really missing him.
xox Leo -
Kathryn
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