I keep repeating "it's not fair, it's not fair" in my head. I say it when I think about my personal loss, when I talk to my mom, when I think of my brother, when I think of Leo's friends and when I think their community. It's just not fair.
It's been a really hard couple days. I don't want to talk to anyone besides my mom. On Wednesday - I'm pretty certain I cried for a good 3-4 hours. I'm having those sessions more frequently. I just don't understand why this had to happen. I wish I had another few years - at least. I wish the loved ones left behind were given a heads-up. I just wish I had more time with Leo.
I had a cooking question last week. I picked up my phone to call and ask him - then I remembered - I lost my source. It sucks. Who am I going to call now?
I miss you a lot Leo...
It's not fair.
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